The internet has it’s ways of making the grass look so much greener in other cities. i find myself lurking people from new york, l.a., d.c., and it seems they are having much more of a grand time at this life stuff than i am. it could boil down to laziness but i don’t think that is completely it. i feel like people my own age here for the most part have decided to retreat, to give in to what fucking society thinks they should do and go off getting married, spouting out kids like their vaginas were machine guns and living the american nightmare. this makes me not want to go out because ( no offense to my younger friends ) everyone just turned eighteen and though I do not look my age, i AM my age and I feel I am walking around in the past. i feel that pull that everyone who has a ring on their finger and a baby bjorn probably felt when they did what they did, only the thought of that to me is like, well you might as well just put me out of my misery. I mean what am I supposed to do now? where do people my age hang out and socialize with one another and have actual conversations about adult things and not what their next american apparel purchase is going to be. where are youuuuuuuu????? it’s so fucking depressing. this is what made me move last time. i feel like the only reason i ever come back is for family and the small circle of people that are not still going through puberty in the bar which is valid enough but i need to enjoy my life too. i just don’t know how anymore.

I feel like I have overstepped my boundaries with some things. I dislike drama more than anything and i have gone and gotten myself into some things and i wish now that I just would have given it some time and left it alone. It was not my situation and I went on anger alone first without thinking about the fact that it is not me to get involved in other peoples shit. It is not like me to judge before giving someone an opportunity to explain themselves and their side. I am very sorry for this now I just don’t know how to say it because now I am the asshole. Some place I never wanted to be. That doesn’t make what this person did right and i still very much feel that it was utter crap but people make mistakes. I’m not perfect. We have all at some point done one thing or another that we were not exactly proud of. Me and my big mouth. What was I thinking?

The other situation I feel bad about because I am me. I am the person that will feel like a wretched piece of shit about confronting someone that needs to be confronted. I try my hardest to not be a negative person. I only want to invite light and love in my life but sometimes there are certain people that pass through your life and though maybe in their own minds they do not intend to hurt. Maybe their way of thinking is a little off kilter. Maybe these people think it is okay to do the hurtful things they do because they excuse themselves by saying they did not mean to do it. I know a person like this. The type of person that will “accidentally” fuck their best friends boyfriend. The type of person that will put their friends in upsetting situations on “accident”. I had to put my foot down on this person and nip it in the bud before they even tried to make a ruckus in my life. Why do I feel bad about this, I don’t know really. Maybe because I am not that shallow, self righteous, negative jerk. I do have a spine though and I know I need to use it sometimes. I just wish that I did not feel bad about it when I do.

I then again tried to get my cock in this time succeeding. At first she was tense and then started to relax as I continued my
half strokes into complete full strokes. I then grabbed her hair and pulled back on it so i could would wisper in her
ear do you like this. And she replied with a content ummmha. I then grabbed the vibrator out of my bag and inserted
it into her vagina. With my large cock in her back door I had a hard time getting the 7 inch vibrator in more than half
way. I then turned it on and it turned us both on. Me feeling it through the thin wall on my cock with in minutes we both
came extremely loud. I then slid out of her and untied her as I collapsed into the couch. She regained her composure
and began to clean off my cock with her mouth and looking up at me with those pleeding eyes is this what you want.

I tied it tight so that she could feel the pressure on her pussy. I also blind folded her and tied up her ankles.
I then took my belt off my and snapped it by her ear making her quiver. I then began to lash her backside with each lash
you could hear the muffled sigh of pain and pleasure mixed in. With her bum scarlet red form the lashing I put down the
belt not wanting to leave permanent markings. I started to smack her ass with my hand then I decided to start smacking
her pussy. This brought about the wettest pussy I have ever seen. She was througly enjoying it. By this time my dick
was stiff with anticipation and even though my pet was enjoying the spanking I decided to cram my large throbbing cock into her from behind. Within minutes she came and that set me off as well. I then picked her up off the ground by her ropes.
This set off the loudest quieff I have ever heard. I asked her did see ask for my permission in which she shook her head
no. I tossed her onto the couch still tied up and began to spank her again. I then spied her tight virgin asshole.
I grabbed the back of her hair and asked her if she would submit to me which the reply was yes master. I then pressed my reborn cock up to her backdoor and with only the juices from her pussy on my dick I tried to shove my cock in to no avail. I then lossened her up with one then two and three fingers.

Okay- often I will post on my any of my web pages asking you viewers to write to me about what you would like to do to me if you had the chance. Here in the next three posts was the best story I received.

ENJOY!

I met Veronika on-line in room not in our location. We chatted
for awhile and started MSN to each other a few times. We made
arrangements to meet up. The night if it coming around I
had to play sport before hand and was really tired and tried
to postponed it. She said that this was the only night we
could meet for two weeks. So I went ahead we were to meet at
a public bar. I went there and had a few drinks will waiting
for her. I was getting tired of waiting and thought about
going when the bar maid started flirting with me so I decided
to stay. Thats when Veronika showed up and I got to size her up.
She was about 5′ 5 of slender build, B cup breast
and a nice tight ass with blue eyes and straight blond hair.
We chatted for awhile and did a little bit of dancing before
we headed back to her place. When we chatted before she said
that she liked to be subservant and liked to have a male in
charge. When wwe talked on-line she stated that she never
had anal but might try with the right guy. When we got in the
door at her place she started kissing me a licking and bitting
my ear. I forced her down to start giving me head and undressing
me. After a few minutes of this I comanded her to take her
cloths off which she eagley complied. I then took out a few
of my accesory tools. I tied her hands behind her back I then
took another rope and tied it to her clasped together wrist
and pulled it down over her already wet snatch and brought
it back over her belly, breast, and shoulders back to her
wrist.

MMMMMMMMMMMM…. I wanna hold u in my arms and kiss u a long passionate kiss… our tongues dance a hot tango while they explore each other… my hands slowly caress your clothed body as my kissing moves downward… my teeth gently pull your ear lobes and nibble your neck as my hands slide down the small of your back to cup your nice firm ass… i pull you closer squeezing your gorgeous breasts against my chest… now i lay you down on the bed… your clothes still on… i kiss you all over… down your neck… across your breasts… over your tummy… down to your inner thigh… and down your leg to your toes… now… looking into your eyes i start to unbutton your blouse… on your back your blouse falls open exposing your gorgeous titties… nipples erect and expecting stimulation… i kiss you again… our hot breath mingles… i kiss down your neck again… over your shoulder… down to your tits… i kiss each nipple then suck it gently into my mouth while i swirl my tongue on it… my hands start to undo your pants as i continue to kiss swirl and suck your nipples… alternating between the two… your pants undone now, i start to kiss downward… to across your tummy… i tickle the your bellybutton with my tongue as i start to wiggle your pants down… i kiss downward still… down to your thong… your pants now are off…